lifevslife's Blog

I am tired of this emotional roller coaster one day i feel like a god and the next day i want to curl up in my bed and day...i don't have mania.. i just wish to leave this house ,leave my family once and for all, i am not a bad
person but i am fed up with every day drama i fed up with me loosing my
goals and ambitions and i am tired of how selfish everyone is, why i don't
have a normal family, why i am stuck with this dysfunctional family, sometimes
i wonder why i am still here, every day i loose a piece of my soul and every
day i feel so worthless and so stupid.

My so called dad is not married and happy with his second wife and it is up to me to take care of mom and my siblings, and i have to make mom feel good cuz
she is so weak and depressed to do this for herself, in what sick world do i
have to do all that, why can't i get a damn break like everyone else.

what is the hell is wrong with this world? why can't i find peace any where, i wonder what have i done to deserve all this, sometimes i tell myself to think less and just go with it, forget everything and i manage to do this, but i
know years will go by so fast and i will get old and alone , and will look
back to my life and realize that i have nothing and everything i did was
a total waste.